my top five messy characters


Hello, friends!

So, recently, I saw a post from Ngọc @ Read With Ngọc and I was in love with the concept. Basically, they also shared five characters who are a mess but that we love anyway, and I couldn’t stop thinking about all the several characters I could fit under this topic too. So, thanks a lot Ngọc for the amazing idea (& go check out their blog already!)

There were quite a lot of characters I wanted to include, so I’ll be considering making a part 2 for this list, because apparently I just love all the messy people.


Clara was probably one of the biggest surprises I’ve had this year, because I never imagined I’d relate so much to her.

The book pitches our protagonist as this class-clown, troublemaker, which is very much true, but also very much non-relatable for me, since I’m the biggest introvert ever. The entire plot revolves around this prank that went too far and as a punishment, Clara is forced to work in her dad’s food truck for the whole summer, alongside with her nemesis, Rose.

And, truly, that’s not even the worst part about Clara’s personality, if I’m honest.

She’s really short-tempered and constantly pushing Rose’s buttons to get her angry. She’s also really bad at flirting.

But I think the one trait that puts her on this list – and also the one I relate so much – is the fact she keeps every relationship surface-level and everyone at arms’ length. There’s definitely a reason for that, and the exploration of it is what made me love this book so much, but Clara is definitely scared of real commitments because she’s scared of being vulnerable and getting hurt.

Using humor to escape your true, dark thoughts is a real, real big mood, but also a really short way for complications.


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Recently, I saw this Twitter post about how James Potter kinda sucked and, while that’s absolute true, I also really, really love him?

And I’m truly not here to write an essay about how, despise everything, he’s still much better and much more of a hero than Severus Snape ever will, but I think it’s really awesome to analyze James’ character deeply.

When I first read the passages of Harry finding out about James’ past, I remember feeling really torn, because I’ve always had the same idea of James that his son had: that he was a hero and he was perfect. And, in a lot of ways, I felt betrayed that he could also be a bully and a true asshole.

But that’s the point, isn’t it? Showing that every hero has its flaws and imperfections. Harry was far from perfect, and yet he’ll always be known in history for defeating Voldemort. This doesn’t mean that he didn’t make mistakes; it just means that he was human. (Okay, and a wizard, but still human as in a general term).

Characters like this are there to show that you don’t have to be perfect to be a hero. It is expected, and I know Captain America makes it feel like it’s possible, but truly, most people who are known in history were just regular-ass folks, trying their bests. And James grows a hell lot, so I think he deserves a break.

Still, he’s kinda messsy AF, so he deserves a spot here too.


Find any top 5 in which I’m not talking about either Helene or The Maze Runner. I challenge you.

But I just love her character a lot, okay? And she’s so far from perfect; in fact, she’s incredibly flawed and quite problematic, and I still adore her.

The thing about the world in which these characters live in is that it is not merciful at all. Most of the time, it’s about killing in order to survive, and there’s also a ton of hatred and prejudice being thrown around. Therefore, I think it’s extremely understandable how Helene sees the world and the people around her.

And I also don’t believe it’s fair to compare her to Elias, because Elias is literally a Hufflepuff. It’s in his nature to be good and kind to ever single leaving creature. Not all of us are gifted like that.

She’s still trying her best to both be a decent being and also protect the people that she loves, in a world where it’s pretty damn hard to do both. And I appreciate her efforts a whole lot.


Oh, Lord, the walking-mess that is Monty Montague, though!

I love this guy a lot, okay? Re-reading The Gentleman’s Guide just made me realize how much Monty is a work in progress and I love that so much about him.

Monty is loud and hilarious, which are already remarkable traits that would make me love him even if he was an even bigger asshole. Because he can also be incredibly selfish, and it’s hard to get his head out of his own ass sometimes. I do really appreciate the side characters for calling him out on his privilege and teaching him about stuff, though, because his growth becomes obvious.

Despite that, Monty clearly struggles with a lot of self-esteem issues and uses humor to cover his insecurities, which is relatable AF, but also incredibly sad, and I feel like I’ve spent most of this book trying to either hug him, laugh with him or punch him on the face, which represents the messiness of his character pretty well in my opinion.


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When it comes to Kavinsky, there’s no nice way to put it. He’s an asshole, simply.

Kavinsky is an incredibly manipulative and abusive character. He’s the villain in our second book, The Dream Thieves, and has a really intense hate-but-also-not-really relationship with Ronan. And, also, he’s a jackass.

Like, literally.

And, yet, I love him so damn much.

I don’t love him in spite of his bad traits, but very much because of them. He’s just a fascinating character to me. He’s mean and snarky and incredibly mysterious too. There’s so little that we know of his backstory, and even when he shares something, it’s impossible to know whether or not he’s telling the truth, because coming from Kavinsky, it’s more likely to be a lie.

He is still a human being, though, which shows in his feelings towards Ronan, and seeing beneath it all is also such a marvelous ride.

Overall, Kavinsky is the messiest in this list, but also my most favorite especially because of everything.

Alright! I’ve rambled for about 1k words about how much I adore messy and morally-grey characters, so it’s your turn now. Let me know in the comments if you agree with my choices and which ones you’d add for your list. (And, once again, thanks Ngọc for inspiring me for this post!)



mid-year freak out book tag!


Hello, fellow bloggers!

First of all, some of you may have noticed that I changed my blog layout. It’s a change I’ve been wanting to make for a while now and I’m really happy with the new style I came up with. It’s still not perfect, but it’s what I can do for now. Let me know your thoughts on it!

Today, I’ll be finally answering the tag of all tags. The tag that, every year, every book blogger or BookTuber needs to answer. It is pretty much a tradition in the community, and my first time answering it, so yay!

Also, because it’s a tag that is literally been everywhere, it is pretty much impossible to find the original creator, much like the Harry Potter fanarts you see online. If any of you know who was the first person to answer this tag, let me know so I can credit them properly.

Now, onto the tag:

Best book you’ve read so far in 2019

IMG_0964I think this is not only the best book I’ve read this year, but in a really long time. I was so surprised by how much I adored Vicious and how the writing style and format took me aback, because it was so unique, original and smart.

Vicious is not told in linear pace, so you have a lot of flashbacks and flash-forwards. The concept behind EOs is so interesting and incredibly dark. The characters are fascinating, especially when you start learning more about their motivations and powers. The writing was breath-taking and I was engaged enough that I didn’t want to skip a single sentence; I just wanted to savor every second of it.


Best sequel you’ve read so far in 2019

mid2I realized I didn’t read a single sequel this year, besides Crooked Kingdom and Obsidio. Clearly, my YA fantasy days are over, since I don’t have any series to finish or continue on with.

Both were amazing but also not. Crooked Kingdom surprised me in a lot of ways and I couldn’t stop thinking about it days after finishing it. The characters are phenomenal and I definitely understand the hype around Leigh Bardugo. Ultimately, though, I don’t know how much this book was necessary and the ending (as in last 40 pages) fell a little flat and convenient.

IMG_0969Obsidio was definitely my favorite one in the trilogy in terms of pacing. It was much more comfortable, while still being entertaining and engaging. However, it kept using the same tropes that were successful in the first two books and it was stressing me out. I’ll still miss the heck out of these characters, though.

So, even though both were bittersweet experiences, I still am very happy to have finished both of these series and totally consider them both worth the hype. I do look forward to finishing more series in my list during the last half of the year too.


New release you haven’t read yet, but want to

Let’s talk about this, folks.

I have a particular note on my computer with 25 titles that have come out this year (we’re in July) that I have yet to read. And, of course, I also have this RIDICULOUSLY HUGE list of all backlist titles I haven’t picked up.

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Most anticipated release for the second half of the year

As you guys saw above, I don’t really keep up with new releases, and so I hardly ever know what’s coming out before it’s already here and I see bloggers and BookTubers talking about it.

However, there are to titles I’m dying to read: Jackpot, by Nic Stone (because I strongly believe Nic Stone is on her way to become one of my favorite authors of all times and this premise sounds fantastic) & Wayward Son (because I miss Baz and Simon a lot, ofc).


Biggest disappointment

IMG_0971To be honest, much like the rest of my life, there were a lot of disappointments this year. I’m a disappointment. It’s life.

The biggest one, though, was probably The Foxhole Court. I had this in my “5-star-prediction-list” and, guess what? I gave it 1.5 stars. This is not a let down folks, this is a fall off of a helicopter ride with no parachute. It was devastating.

I don’t think I’ve recovered yet to continue with the series, but it is in my plans to give it a second shot. Apparently, I love pain????


Biggest surprise

IMG_0973Around the same time I picked up The Foxhole Court, I also read the amazing Heretics Anonymous, and I was so pleased and surprised with how much I loved it! Probably because I had literally no expectations going into it? I now need to acquire a physical copy, because I refuse not to have this book standing on my shelves, along with the rest of my children.

Heretics Anonymous is a really fun YA contemporary that follows a group of heretic teenagers in a catholic school. This was smart, hilarious, introduced South-American rep (!!!!!!!) and called out on privilege while still acknowledging that everyone’s problems are important and valid.

Basically, Katie Henry can have my children after this one. I’m that invested.


Favorite new author (debut or new to you)


I do hope Adib Khorram, the author of Darius the Great is Not Okay continues to write as many books as he possibly can. Darius the Great was amazing and had such a soft way of dealing with feelings such as first-love and identity problems.

This entire book is just so soft and adorable and I loved Darius a lot. I can not wait to fall in love with the rest of the characters this author comes up with.




Newest fictional crush

IMG_0962Honestly, if this answer doesn’t solidify the fact that I love pain and I don’t even know why myself, I don’t know what will.

Because my newest fictional crush is David, from Truly Devious. I know a lot of people don’t like him and I definitely understand, but there was something about his mysterious-ness and the fact I was picturing him as a cuter version of Rodrick, from Diary of a Wimpy Kid (if you know it you know it) that was really attractive.

Do I still feel like he could stab me in my sleep? Yes. Do I still want to know more about his character? Heck yes.


Newest favorite character

mid3American Panda was the first book I read in 2019. And Mei remains as one of my favorite characters I read about this year.

I’ve never felt such an urge to hug a book character and become their best friends. I genuinely feel like Mei and I would get along very well and I’d love to just support her in everything she does. She’s funny, sort of clumsy, while still being incredibly talented and strong. There’s just a lot to love about Mei – and this whole book in general -, so I urge you to pick up American Panda already.


Book that made you cry

mid1Far from the Tree is sadder than Marley & Me. It’s so heartbreaking, but also hopeful, and it only makes you cry even more?

Books like this one break me apart and put me back together and I’m so here for it. Far From the Tree deals with adoption, identity and family in ways I had never encountered in YA before – it’s raw and real and absolutely eye-bawling.




Book that made you happy

IMG_0978The Way You Make Me Feel was another book I read way back in January and every time I think about it, I just want to smile and hug all of the characters.

This is a summer contemporary (and since I know it’s summer where many of you live, you already have a perfect excuse to read this one), with hints of Brazilian culture (which I LEGIT died for), a perfect friends-to-enemies relationship, a #relatable main character and a love interest called Hamlet who is a labrador in man form.

How can I not just smile and die every time?


Your favorite book to movie/tv show that you’ve seen so far?

Unfortunately, I don’t think there was any ):

I mean, I did rewatch The Maze Runner trilogy and cried with every single one of them. (In The Maze Runner, because that movie is amazing; in The Scorch Trials, because Minho looked so good; and in Death Cure, because it is such a mess).

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is it really a lais’ post if i’m not raving about tmr?


What is your favorite post you’ve written so far?

I was re-reading some of my old posts recently and I realized that my discussion on the sexual content on YA was so good?

Like, legit.

It was length-y and I actually covered a lot more topics than I remembered. I wish more of my discussions looked like that, but apparently it was a one-time thing? I do hope to get better at it, though, because that one snapped and I didn’t even try, lol.


Most beautiful book you’ve bought so far this year (or received)

I don’t think I’ve talked enough about the fact I am now a proud owner of a copy of The Weight of Our Sky and this cover is even more stunning up close!!!!!#*(!!) It looks so beautiful on my shelves!

What books do you need to read by the end of the year?

Friends, there’s a lot. But, a summary version would be:

  • RE-READS: I’ll Give You The Sun, The Dream Thieves, Magnus Chase (still haven’t decided if I want to re-read only one of the books or the whole trilogy already, lol).
  • BACKLIST TITLES: The Golden Compass, The Rose and the Dagger, The Hidden Maze
  • NEW RELEASES: Don’t Date Rosa Santos and Daisy Jones and the Six.


And that’s a wrap up! Let me know in the comments: what books do you need to read by the end of the year? Are you also hyped about Wayward Son? And are there any movie adaptations I should check out? Let’s chat!

a very rambly life update & july TBR!

Hello, friends!

It’s been a hot minute, but I’m officially back! It’s winter break, so I’ll have much more time to connect and blog hop. I’m also incredibly thankful for all the lovely people that still remembered about me while I was M.I.A, it means a whoooole lot! 💛

I just did a monthly wrap up, but I still feel like talking about what I’ve been up to lately, since I didn’t get the chance to talk *enough* on my previous post, lol.


First of all: I SURVIVED LAST WEEK. It was kinda crazy, but I had this major presentation to prepare (I had to do a lot more, because group projects suck, especially when you are in a bad group, which was 10/10 my case) plus my best-friend’s surprise birthday party iN THE SAME DAY. I was so stressed out about both and had time to barely think. But, guess what? Everything worked out!

wowThe party was a success and he was super happy! He had absolutely no idea we were planning it, so mission accomplished, I guess? The theme was ‘La La Land‘ which is his favorite movie ever, and the high point was playing City of Stars while he first walked into the party and saw everyone, lol.  We are that over the top.

Also, I’m done with my first semester at university, and I don’t know how to feel. I am definitely grateful for the experience, but also having mixed feelings. Ultimately, I feel regretful that I haven’t talked to the people I wanted to talk to since the beginning of the year, and now friend groups are mostly formed, so I don’t know how to approach them without being awkward. But, I guess that’s life for introverts, hahah.


I didn’t read much in June, but I did watch some amazing things I want to talk to you guys about.

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(Trigger warnings: abusive relationship, graphic scenes of death and torture)

Friends: I *finally* watched an Original Netflix Show that doesn’t make me feel like piercing my eyes with a fork. It’s an ACHIEVEMENT!

I have given a lot of Netflix Originals a chance, but none captured my attention enough. However, The Society was extremely binge-worthy. I was procrastinating studying, as one does, and I watched pretty much the entire thing in one afternoon. It was great.

The ending didn’t wrap up the story the way I wanted to, but it leaves just enough to be answered in the following seasons. The cast definitely lacks on diversity, though I was happy to see a deaf character and the use of ASL throughout the show. Grizz is by far the best character in this show and probably the reason why I enjoyed it so much.

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Honestly, this show is ABSURD, but also so addicting? How?

I didn’t know The Good Doctor was inspired off of a K-drama, but once you start watching it, it becomes pretty obvious. The first few episodes give the same feel that a K-drama does: the very overdramatic dialogues, the flashbacks, the Angst… It was all there. However, I feel like halfway through the show was when they stopped following the original story and turning it into its own thing, and it was pretty clear too.

I still enjoyed watching it, and strongly agree with Freddie Highmore getting all the awards he can get for his performance in this one. I’ve read two articles from autistic people saying they were pleased with the representation, but I obviously can’t say much myself. However, I do wish they had been more emphatic throughout the show that autism is a spectrum disorder, therefore, everyone will experience it differently, and Shaun’s (the main character) is definitely authentic.

Again, though, this show is incredibly absurd. Most patients go to the hospital for a normal-ass thing just to find out they’re actually dying and have two months left to live. It’s insane, but entertaining too, lol.

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If you haven’t watched this yet, let me just warn you: BRING TISSUES. IT’S SAD.


I was sobbing for real and had to be really quiet because I didn’t want to disturb anyone. I’m crying now just thinking about it. Ugh. Really wish I wasn’t as attached as I am to animated characters.

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No one:

Not a single soul:

Me: Well, if that’s the case, I’m gonna rewatch SKAM.

I just love this show, ok? It’s problematic and flawed and definitely not the best thing ever, but it showed up in my life just at the exact moment I needed it the most, and I kinda want to go back to those feelings for a while.

(Also, I just really, really miss Even? And Chris? And Vilde too? Ugh).


My July TBR is just a little bit ambitious. (By a little bit I mean A LOT).

  • There’s Something About Sweetie, by Sandhya Menon. Have actually already read this one and loved it. Sandhya Menon, I’M SO THANKFUL.
  • The Unhoneymooners, by Christina Lauren. When I found out that this book was going to be a romance novel from one perspective only: 😁😁😁😁 vs. When I realized that all of the male characters were still going to be trash: 😠😠😠😠😠
  • Becoming, by Michelle Obama. I’m reading it, folks. The 19 hour long audio book. It’s happening.
  • Opposite of Always, by Justin A. Reynolds. Currently reading – the narrator is good, but I keep getting distracted as well? Ugh.
  • The Golden Compass, by Phillip Pullman. My best friend gifted me this book back in October for my birthday and I still haven’t read it. #worstbestfriendever
  • The Rose and the Dagger, by Renee Ahdieh. I’m only like three years late, but it’s fine. We’re good.
  • The Weight of Our Sky, by Hanna Alkaf. Started this one back in May and still haven’t finished it, so I need to fix this ASAP.

That’s all for this life update, friends! Now, please, share down in the comments: what have you been watching recently? And which books do you plan to read next? Let’s chat!

monthly wrap up: june, ’19


Hello, friends!

Life is finally getting sorted out. One week from now, and I’ll finally be free to enjoy my winter break as I should: reading & watching Netflix ALL DAY. I simply refuse to get out of bed during winter break, much to my parent’s annoyance. But honestly, who can blame me?

I still have to go through a very busy week, with a major presentation + my best friend’s birthday party (which I’m organizing) IN THE EXACT SAME DAY. If I survive this week, I’ll make sure to let you all know.


  • It’s my favorite time of the year! I’ve already talked about this during my ‘Trip From My Home Country’ post of the month, but if you don’t know what I’m talking about, it’s FESTA JUNINA TIME in Brazil! During June and July, schools, churches and other institutions throw parties to celebrate Catholic saints, the countryside and street food. It’s currently winter here, so there are a lot of hot beverages and great food. I’ve eaten so much for the past two weeks. It’s been great.
  • I watched the one movie may have gotten into my favorite-movies-ever list. I finally watched Rocketman this month and I’m still in awe. I was obsessed. I spent about 80% of my time talking about this movie and the other 20% of the time, I was praying for someone else to bring it up so I could talk about it more.  I didn’t know a ton about Elton John, but I’m very interested in biopics, and this is by far the best one I’ve ever watched. It’s not a movie with music; it’s really a musical, with dance moves and extravagant performances. It was heartbreaking but so beautiful and entertaining at the same time.


My month was a disgrace. I only read three books, and I just had 5 on my TBR. There were two super hyped reads, and I didn’t like either. So, yeah, thanks, life, for beating me up and making me feel like I’ll drown in all the books I want to read, but don’t have time to. 🙃


The first book I completed this month was already a controversial read. I picked up Red, White & Royal Blue expecting to love it as much as everyone else did. Even though I’m not the biggest fan of romance books (though I love rom-coms with my life, my brain apparently doesn’t work like that), I was looking forward to a fast-paced and entertaining read. Except for the fact that this was not quick at all, and it actually felt like I was reading for ages and not moving on at all. The paragraphs are so long and the descriptions are endless. I also did not care for most of the characters; except for Prince Henry, though he was as deep as kiddie pool. Who’s going to break the news that having a British accent is not a personality trait? Most of the representation of The Royal Family was so unrealistic and it actually felt like I was reading The Royals (the E! TV show) in a book format. I do admit, though, I’m not the target audience for this book, since I’m neither a romance fan nor American. Perhaps, Americans, who can actually relate to the political side of the story, will feel this more deeply. As for me, I do appreciate what it was *trying* to do, but man, that ain’t it.


The Song of Achilles, by Madeline Miler is another super well loved book, which all of my Goodreads friends have given 5 stars to. Except for moi, of course. This book was pretty much Twilight in Greece, with all the tropes that make Twilight unlikeable, such as the perfect-literally-flawless love interest and the unbalanced relationship. I was so surprised that yet this is such a loved story. Patroclus was Bella all the way – clumsy and weak; the type of person no one would ever glance twice to. He wasn’t good at anything and besides being good at medicine, his only personality trait was liking Achilles. And Achilles was the man, the perfect equivalent to Edward – beautiful, strong, destined to all of the great things in the world. But his personality kinda sucked too, so I don’t get the hype. Overall, even though the Greece setting was interesting and the writing style definitely beautiful, the romance was a true disappointment.

37880094Lastly, I picked up The Lady’s Guide to Petticoats and Piracy. I was actually expecting to like this one the least out of the three and it was the one I enjoyed the most. Oh, how the tables have turned. Mackenzi Lee’s writing style is one of my favorite things in the world, and reading this book made me want to revisit The Gentleman’s Guide very badly. I mostly picked up this book because it had ace/aro rep and I was so happy to say I really related with Felicity in this sense. Even though she was one of my least favorite characters when reading the first book, she definitely grew on me in this one. The supporting cast of female characters was also fascinating and added a lot to the story, especially when discussing feminism and introducing layered female characters.


I failed my schedule miserably and didn’t post a single review this month. I’ll just stop now because this post has literally just been me counting all my failures.


Everything I listened to this month were soundtracks, mostly Aladdin and Rocketman. I’m still obsessed with Wallows and screaming to everybody that I know that they just *need* to listen to it.

I also have to thank El for recommending so many amazing artists for me, which I’ve included in my playlist – iamnotshane and Lewis Capaldi are my favorites.

My playlists are as random as ever, but this one is definitely one of my favorites of the year so far.


July is Winter break for me, which means a whole month doing absolutely nothing. I’m so ready. There’s so much time, so many possibilities. I have an extensive TBR and my goal is to read at least 100 pages a day (watch me fail during the first week). I am also looking forward to blog hopping more and, hopefully, organizing myself better once life gets chaotic again, so I don’t miss out on so much like I have this past month.

Now, let me know in the comments: how was your June? Did you get to all the books you wanted to? Is there something – a song, a movie, a book – you’re obsessed with at the moment? Let me know in the comments!

a trip to my home country: my favorite time of the year!


Hello, friends!

I’m sorry that all of my posts have been starting out with an apology, including this one. It’s just that, truly, life has been chaotic lately. I’ve announced before that I have now kind of a side-job that has been taking a lot of time; plus all the school work that comes with the end of a semester; and I’ve also decided to plan a surprise party for one of my best friends, so to say I have my hands full is an understatement.

Because of that, I haven’t been reading at all and I’ve also been pretty absent here too. I also apologize if I’m not able to get to everyone’s previous posts, but I’ll try my best!

However, this post is not only to talk about the fact I’m incredibly overwhelmed with life. It is actually time to discuss my favorite time of the year, aka: FESTA JUNINA SEASON.

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How do I even begin to explain festa junina?

During the months of June and July, my country celebrates “Saints Season“. A lot of Catholic saints are celebrated during this time of the year, including Saint John the Baptist, Saint Anthony and Saint Peter. And since Brazil is a predominantly Catholic country, a lot of parties happen all around.

Originally, Festa Junina was a celebration that happened on the countryside, and around churches. People ate traditional food and got around the bonfire to sing and dance. Throughout the years, though, the party has changed a lot, but some things remain the same.

Not only Catholic churches celebrate Festa Junina. Most schools do as well, and it’s now considered a time of the year where you can gather around with your community, so it can happen literally anywhere – even in someone else’s backyard.

IMG_0666 2The food is mostly traditional, but it’s just a pack of delicious street food all around. My favorite one is definitely tempura. It’s actually a Japanese dish, but it’s absolutely delicious and commonly served during Festa Juninas. I know this one doesn’t look that appetizing, but I swear it’s delicious, especially when it comes with shrimp.

Because Festa Juninas originated and were more popular in the countryside, it is a tradition to dress alike and play country songs. We mostly see kids going around in plaid shirts, high waisted jeans and boots. There’s a lot of sertanejo playing in the background too.

Bonfires are not that common anymore, though, but because it happens during Winter for us, there are a lot of hot foods and beverages to make us feel warm, since most of the parties happen outside.

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But why do I love it so much? Simply because the food is delicious. I am obsessed with street food and it’s literally everything I can want in one place. Plus, it’s always nice to be surrounded by your community. These photos I took were from the Festa Junina happening in my high school, which I am no longer enrolled at, but I was able to go and see a lot of my old friends and teachers.

Overall, I like festa junina more than I like Christmas or any other celebration, to be honest. It’s truly my favorite time of the year.

Now, please, share down in the comments: what’s your favorite time of the year? And which celebrations only happen in your country? I’d love to know!


the harry potter book tag!


Hello, friends!

Today, I’ll be answering the Harry Potter Book Tag. I was tagged for this one by the lovely Zoie @ Whisked Away By Words, which is by the way the nicest blog title ever – and she’s super nice too, which is fitting.

This tag was created by Trang and Lashaan @ Bokidote, whom I’m very thankful for spending such a long time gathering all these spell names and creating the graphics!

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Man, is it bad that I’m already going for a MAJORLY CONTROVERSIAL START?

But I’ll have to answer RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE, BY CASEY MCQUINSTON. I know, I know.

Probably many of you are screaming at your computer right now, saying: “HOW DARE this girl think she can re-write this already perfect book?”. But we just didn’t click at all.

Casey McQuinston’s writing style is quite descriptive, with very long paragraphs and humongous chapters. I much prefer my contemporaries short and sweet and dynamic, full of dialogues, preferably. I really liked the premise and I overall appreciate what the book was trying to do, but I had such a hard time getting through it.



TRULY DEVIOUS, BY MAUREEN JOHNSON was a *good* first book in a series.

Even though it’s been a while since I last read it, it’s a book I think about frequently. I really like the characters and the setting and the overall writing style, even if it was hard for me to get into it at first.

(Actually, I just learned recently that it is being translated to Portuguese, which means that I overused my last two brain cells trying to read this in English when I could’ve just waited a couple more months. That’s nice).



I think about JACKPOT, BY NIC STONE approximately 5 times a day. I just need that book so bad.

I’ve recently established Nic Stone as one of my favorite authors and the premise for her most recent release just sounds SO GOOD. I’m so ready.



I love this question.

VICIOUS, BY V.E. SCHWAB was pretty much both. It was killer, in the sense that it was one of the best written books I’ve ever read; and also there were quite a lot of deaths going on too. It was a great time.



Every time I think about confusing books, I can only picture THE SQUARE ROOT OF SUMMER, BY HARRIET REUTER HAPGOOD.

There were some things to like about that book: the family relationships were nice and I liked the main character. But a lot of the book had to do with physics and wormholes and time-travel, but not really, and I was just a big ball of ?????????? throughout the whole read.



(This is my favorite spell, by the way!)

I mean, ARI & DANTE is the type of book that is everything I’ve ever wanted to be and everything I already am just put together, so is there any other possible answer for this one?



Time to bring back and old favorite: THE DREAM THIEVES, BY MAGGIE STIEFVATER.

I still haven’t re-read this one this year, which is a crime that needs to be fixed soon. It’s one of my favorite books ever, but most of it is about stealing things, and dreaming, and getting high, and being bad.




A recent book that surprised me a lot was THE BRIDE TEST, BY HELEN HOANG, that turned out to be a lot more than just a romance novel.

When I first picked it up, I was just looking for a great and steamy time, but Helen Hoang punched me in the face several times. It discusses identity, immigration, family and feelings so well. I was so pleased that this turned out to be a lot more than I thought.


Friends, that was the tag! But, since it is a Harry Potter tag and I feel like I haven’t even talked that much about Harry Potter itself, let’s chat:

What’s your Hogwarts House? (I’m a Slytherclaw, because I can’t choose). Who’s your favorite character? (I love Cedric Diggory and Dumbledore the most). What’s your favorite book and movie? (Prisoner of Azkaban – Goblet of Fire). Let me know your answers in the comments!


my favorite & least favorite romantic tropes


Hello, fellow bloggers! And Happy Brazilian Valentine’s Day!

In Brazil, we actually celebrate Valentine’s Day in June 12th! It’s the eve for Saint Anthony’s Day. My country is very catholic, and therefore we celebrate a lot of saints during this time of the year. But the reason why we associate Valentine’s Day with Saint Anthony is because he’s considered the saint of marriage, as he’s reconciled a lot of couples in legends.

In honor of the fact that we’re celebrating Valentine’s Day here today, I want to share my five favorite & least-favorite romantic tropes in fiction.

Let’s get started!



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I live for a good and old Romeo & Juliet trope. This is my type of angst, really. I love the idea of two people loving each other but having the world work against them; stopping them from being together. It honestly sets the best romantic storylines, but most importantly, the most beautiful dialogues.

“These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triump die, like fire and powder
Which, as they kiss, consume”

I do understand not everyone is into this trope. It’s kind of overdramatic, but what is to love about fiction if it’s not overdramatic? This is not the type of love you’ll see anywhere but in a novel or a big screen, and I find it entertaining AF.


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The Proposal is the best rom-com with the fake-dating trope. That’s it.

Ohhh, the good and old fake-dating. “Let’s pretend we’re boyfriend and girlfriend” and then also pretend that we’re not clearly falling in love with each other for real.

Peter Kavinsky & Lara Jean, from To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before, is the #1 bookish example for this trope. And probably my only one too! I have read The Wedding Date, by Jasmine Guillory, but the fake-dating didn’t last for long enough to satisfy my *needs*. I really want to read as many books with this trope as I can. For me, it never gets old.


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Friends to lovers is soooooo superior to enemies to lovers. Don’t @ me.

Growing up, I’ve always dreamt about these types of relationships. (Granted, growing up, I also didn’t know much about what it was like *being* in a relationship). Nonetheless, I always thought that relationships that start as friendships are always so much more comfortable. You already know the other person so well.

Ari & Dante are my babies for this trope. They grow up together, and slowly find their way back to each other.


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Fun fact about me: my favorite fictional couple of all times, the one with the true crown, is the one from the gif above – Mickey & Ian, from Shameless US. I’ve never even watched the show in its entirety, only *their* scenes for about 5 years, which I think shows my commitment.

ANYWAY. I love their banter, because they like to pretend they’re just casual sex buddies. They have nothing more than that. Needless to say, they’re absolutely in love with each other.

I think this is sort of a friends-with-benefits trope, but it’s so hard to find good ones these days? I think most are either way too sex-centered or just don’t give me any feels at all (hello, No Strings Attached). Nonetheless, I still like to believe I can find more from this trope that will finally get in Gallavich’s level for me.


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This is a very specific trope, but boy, if it doesn’t work for me every time.

When I first found Korean Dramas, I’d mostly find poor girl/rich guy narratives. And I really, really don’t vibe with those. There’s something about my feminist side that just can’t stand how the girl has to be constantly inferior, even in her financial situation, which kinda makes the guy this hero that will save her from all her worries. Uh, no, thanks.

The poor guy/rich girl, though, gives me just my type of favorite dynamic. The guy is typically full of pride, and doesn’t want to take the girl’s help. They have a lot of angst. It’s glorious, truly.

Kestrel and Arin, from The Winner’s Trilogy along with Aspen and America, from The Selection series are some of my favorites from this trope. (Adam/anyone in the Raven Cycle is also pretty much this trope in a nutshell and it’s amazing).

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I don’t know what else to call this trope. It’s basically centered around the one nerdy-weird character, that “wears sneakers” and “sits on the bleachers”, dreaming about the day when their love interest will wake up and find that what they’ve been looking for has been here this whole time.

It also typically involves the “cheerleader” with “high heels” that just “doesn’t get your humor like I do”.

Now, as you can *clearly* tell: I freaking love You Belong With Me. My biggest dream is to sing this song off the top of my lungs to a whole crowd. It’s my karaoke go-to. But when it’s taken seriously in a book or show, it makes me want to pierce my eyes with a fork.

Stiles and Lydia, from Teen Wolf, are the best example of it. Probably one of the many reasons why I can’t stand them.


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Even though I’m not a fan of this trope – at all -, I do recognize some couples that work well with it. But my problem with hate to love or enemies to lovers or whatever you want to call it is that it exhausts me by page 2.

I know that typically people adore this type of banter. It’s the “will they, won’t they” that makes the story entertaining. But it’s also with this trope that comes a lot of toxic behavior, unrealistic attraction, etc.

Ron & Hermione weren’t exactly enemies when they met, but they certainly weren’t the best of friends either. And I just really can’t stand the idea that if a guy treats you poorly, he’s actually in love with you. Or that you can’t really hate a person, otherwise it means you’re secretly falling for them. Ew.


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As much as I enjoy reading romance, I just can’t stand when that is everything the characters live for. They need to have a personality and a life before they have a love interest.

I also hate when the relationship takes up pretty much everything that these characters live for. The friendships they used to have, the things they used to do, it pretty much vanishes as soon as they find their significant others. Like? How?

It’s so beyond unrealistic and quite unhealthy as well. There’s more to life than romantic relationships, friends. Just stop.

Jason and Piper, from the Heroes of Olympus series, were that annoying couple that people consider a unit because they never let go of each other and can not shut up about how the other looks good or how much they like them. It was unbearable going through their POVs when reading this series.


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This trope is the reason as to why I hate teenagers. I don’t even care that I’m technically one of them.

The things teenagers do believing that “they’re in love” is frankly ridiculous. I feel like there’s a very important line and I’m so bothered when it’s crossed. Like, your health is definitely more important than a guy in a cute hairstyle, but you know, go off.

I also hate when the main couple decides to do something reckless together and then, when it backfires, take no responsibility for it. That’s probably why I hated Isla and the Happily Ever After, by Stephanie Perkins so much. The characters just make the dumbest decisions ever but do not owe up to them. My eyes hurt from rolling so much.


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I’m really sorry, all your Notting Hill fans out there.

I don’t even feel like I need to explain much about this trope, because we all find it annoying. It takes all the fun out of the book.

My favorite thing when reading or watching a romance is to see how the characters will fall in love. To follow how they get to know more about each other, to feel the sexual tension as they’re getting closer and closer, but still not quite there. It’s the magic behind a romance after all.

But if by chapter 10, they’re already kissing; and by chapter 15, they’re already saying ‘I love you’, then this was all fun and no play and I can’t accept that.

I Have Lost My Way, by Gayle Forman, sadly gave me all the insta-love & insta-friendship vibes and I was not happy about that at all.

Friends! Now it’s your turn to let me know: which are your favorite & least-favorite tropes? Do you agree with my choices? Have you got any recommendations for me? And, most importantly, what’s your favorite rom-com? Let’s chat in the comments!

discussion: how do you use goodreads?


Hello, fellow bloggers!

Once again, I apologize for the fact I’ve been a mess lately. I’m taking the weekend to write blog posts, reply to comments and blog hop, so hopefully you guys don’t mind if you see my face popping up on two-week old posts, because, as I’ve stated before, I am a mess.

Because of that, I felt like it was the perfect opportunity to share about how do I use Goodreads and discuss with you guys more about it as well. You’ll soon learn that, much like every other aspect of my life, my presence there is also messy af.

Goodreads is this online platform where you can track all the books you’ve read, give them ratings, organize them by shelves, see other people’s comments about it and so on and so forth. By the way, you can follow me there if you want *shameless self promo*.

As for how I use my Goodreads:

1. I track all the books I’ve read, but not necessarily the time it took me to finish them.

I can not understand only adding books to your Goodreads *a month* after you’ve read them. Like, no. I read books solely so I can see the little bar on my Reading Challenge move. That is my source of motivation.

I will say, though, that I do not add books as soon as I start reading them, so the time it takes me to finish a book is definitely a loooot longer than typically showed in my Gooderads. I’ve been trying to better about it this year, but I almost always forget to add the day I start a book.

2. My TBR shelf is a mess

I do not use my TBR shelf as an actual TBR shelf at all. I don’t know why I’m like this, honestly. But the Goodreads interface is not the most user-friendly and so I’d much rather have phone-notes on the books I want to read, other than adding it to a shelf.

There are books on my TBR which I owe physically, others I don’t. There are books I owe physically and haven’t added there yet.

So, yeah, it’s pretty much a mess, much like my life.

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3. I do have different shelves for different genres and representations

I’ve only done this recently, but it’s been a life-saver. If I’m writing a recommendations post under a specific genre or rep, I can just go for that specific shelf and see all the books I’ve already read that could go for that post.

Since I’ve been tracking how diversely I’m reading this year, this also has come in handy. I’m tracking it in a separate notebook I have, but I’ve been using these shelves a lot, just in case I forget the specifics for each book.

4. I do not write lengthy reviews for every book I read

I know! Probably the biggest crime of having a Goodreads account is not writing reviews, but I just don’t care that much.

I’d much rather white a lengthy review for my blog, where I feel more comfortable sharing my thoughts and being able to format the way I want to. Also, the response on my blog is much better than it would ever be on Goodreads, so I’d much rather share it here than anywhere else.

I do write one-sentence thoughts for each book I read, but that’s about it. I end up always going deeper in my monthly wrap-ups anyway, so I don’t worry that much.

Plus, I don’t think every book deserves a lengthy review. Sometimes, it was just mediocre, and I don’t have that many thoughts on it, so I don’t stress trying to find words for something I don’t even want to talk about on the first place.

I do appreciate Goodreads reviews, though! Every time I’m interested in a book, I end up reading some reviews and especially after I’ve read it, I always look at people’s thoughts and see how we agree or disagree. I just don’t have the same level of diligence, truly.

5. I do have a Goodreads challenge – and this may be the first year I’m closer to achieving it

I know many people do not have Goodreads challenges and don’t care about them, which I do not judge at all. Last year, I didn’t set a number for the challenge either, and it was freeing in a great way.

This year, though, I wanted to work my motivation and aim for something that was high for my previous standards, but still achievable, which is why I chose 40 books as my initial challenge.

We’re halfway through the year, and I’m 70% into it already. It makes me super happy to know I’m much closer to achieving it than I’ve ever been before.

I’m 11 books ahead on the challenge, where in previous years, I’ve only been around two books ahead and probably many behind.

Despise being close, I do not think I’ll be raising the number. I don’t want to get overconfident and ruin it by the end of the year, so I’ll just stick with 40 and see where I can go from there.


That is all I wanted to share with you today. Now, I ask for you guys to continue the discussion in the comments: how do you use Goodreads? Do you write reviews there or in your blog only? How do you shelf your books? Do you use the challenge feature and how close are you to achieving your goal? Let me know! 😌

monthly wrap up: may, ’19


Hello, friends!

I feel like I need to start this post by apologizing for my lack of interaction this month. I still have a lot (a lot) of blog posts to get to, so excuse me if you see a comment by yours truly in a post that is already two weeks old. College hasn’t been treating me well and my side job has been taking a lot of my time lately, plus all the reading & writing I’ve been doing.

Hopefully, by the second week of June, I’ll have sorted things out and will be able to get back on commenting & blog-hopping as usual.


  1. I went to my first ever student march! Last year, a lot of marches happened in the US, such as the Women’s March and even the Students March as a result of school shootings. In my country, though, the protests happened for a different reason. Basically, our government has cut investments for our public universities, with the excuse that “students are just there to party and do nothing else”. Literally. (Our president is so stupid is laughable). As a public university student, I felt the need to be there. It was pretty crowded and it was quite scary, but I’m still overall very glad I was able to go.
  2. I finally watched Aladdin and I’m in love with it. I’ve even added the soundtrack to my monthly playlist for June already. Aladdin has always been one of my favorite animations, and I was very much looking forward to it. Despise the controversy when the casting was first released, I think it’s truly worth watching. Will Smith is amazing as the Genie, and by far my favorite character. I also loved Mena Massoud as Aladdin; he was the perfect balance between charming and awkward, lol. I’d 10/10 recommend it if you like the animation as well!


All the books I read this month (except for one) talk about mental health issues in some way, in honor of May being Mental Health Awareness Month.


First book completed this month was I Have Lost My Way, by Gayle Forman, which deals with depression. I re-read Where She Went by the same author earlier this year and I was excited to catch up with her most recent release. And, typically, I’d trust Gayle Forman with books set in one day. She’s still able to write three-dimensional characters and flesh out relationships, but not in this one. I really didn’t like how quickly the connection between these characters was formed, especially considering how little they knew about each other. Nathaniel, especially, was a character who had about two lines throughout the book, and yet Freya was falling head over heels for him. Harun was the only one whom I truly sympathized with and I definitely wish he wasn’t so much of a third-wheel. I still recommend the audiobook, though, especially because you get to listen to a song that is very important for the narrative and the full cast makes it super dynamic.


My re-read for May was A List of Cages, by Robin Roe, that has ADHD rep. I wanted to re-read this and take my time, since I read it in one sitting the first time around. I also took the chance to highlight some of my favorite quotes and really appreciate the writing. I still find that this book has some minor plot holes and things that fall too conveniently into place, but it’s a beautiful story nonetheless. Adam is, by far, one of my favorite characters in the world and I just wish he could be turned into a real person so we could be best friends. Julian is a sweetheart too and his relationship with Charlie never fails to break my heart and put me back together. Despise this book’s problems, I’d still recommend it to everyone I know.


Then, I was craving desperately some romance, and I thought it was the perfect timing to pick up The Bride Test, by Helen Hoang that came out this May, 7th. I thought it was okay to make an exception for my themed month, because this book still has a lot of great representation, with two Vietnamese leads & an autistic main character. Overall, I enjoyed this book much more than I enjoyed The Kiss Quotient. It was refreshing, because Khai’s character takes some time to understand his own way to cope with feelings, and I wasn’t exhausted of the miscommunication like with Hoang’s previous book. I also found Esme to be such a powerful main character; she was badass and hardworking, and definitely not your typical protagonist, but that’s exactly what made her so endearing to read. (The author’s note at the end!!!!!!) I still hate having to read romance and especially sex scenes from a male perspective, so if you have any romance books recommendations that are written from one perspective only, let me know!


I also finally picked up Eliza & Her Monsters, by Francesca Zappia, that includes anxiety and selective mutism rep. This book was sort of a ride. I didn’t connect to it at all at first and was so frustrated because of that. Eliza was desperate to be edgy, in that “I don’t fit in but I don’t want to fit in” kinda way that I find so annoying and trope-y. Her parents were very understanding & supportive and she still complained about them 24/7. Even though she grows and learns, I still feel like the book could’ve gone further in showing how her behavior was unacceptable. Her relationship with Wallace also got borderline abusive and manipulative at the end and it was a no-no for me. I also did not connect to the fandom aspect of the story as much as I thought I would. I was excited to fall in love with Monstrous Sea as much as I loved Carry On, when reading Fangirl, but I didn’t understand the plot for that series *at all* and I was very much let down. Even though this was not a horrible book, I’d still take it as a disappointment.


At least, my expectations were met with Darius The Great is Not Okay, by Adib Khorram. This one has depression and Persian rep. I loved so many things about this book. First and foremost, the whole talk on identity was so remarkable and I’m pretty sure will touch a lot of people out there. I also loved the friendship element; Sohrab and Darius had the purest of the relationships and it was very heart-warming. The one thing that stood out the most for me was definitely the family aspect. Darius’ relationship with his father mirrored a lot my relationship with my own father and I was already in tears only 20% into the book. Also, the whole talk on body-image was so important! I have yet to read more books with fat MC, but this one made me feel everything. Even though this book deals with a lot of different topics, it never once felt like it was *trying too hard*. Instead, it felt like a very natural way to tell this story, and I’m just so so so happy that I’ve read this. (ALL THE STAR-TREK REFERENCES!!!!!!!!!)


The last book I was able to finish for the month of May was Challenger Deep, by Neal Shusterman, with schizophrenia rep. The book doesn’t actually label the character’s feeling, but it is mentioned to be within the schizo-spectrum. This book was so smart and well done. It was able to, through the writing, show you what it was like inside Caden’s head, in a way I had never seen before. This being a first person novel felt like a true personal ride down the mental illness hole. I also learned that Caden (our main character) was very much inspired off of the author’s son, who also deals with similar disorders, and the book has exclusive illustrations made by him when he was first diagnosed at the age of 15. Because of that close experience, I think the book was able to handle the subject in a very personal and realistic matter, and it was truly heart-wrenching.

Currently, I am reading The Weight of Our Sky, by Hanna Alkaf, that has OCD and anxiety rep. I’ll carry on this read to the month of June and talk to you guys about it in my next monthly wrap up.



My May playlist has been sort of a weird ride. Even though there are some great artists I’m glad to have found out, such as Wallows and Rex Orange County, I still didn’t feel as inclined to listen to it in a regular basis, as I did with my previous playlists. I still think it’s a fun one, if you want to give it a listen. And I’d highly recommend Wallows, by the way!


June is Pride Month so I obviously have plans to read all them queer books. There are a couple I’m super excited to get to, such as Red, White & Royal Blue and A Song of Achilles, because people have been talking non-stop about these two titles and the reviews are all incredibly positive. Hopefully, I’ll love these two just as much as everyone else.

I’m also excited because June is a birthday month for a lot of people close to me. And the day this post comes out is also Champion’s League final and I don’t know why I’ve been anticipating this so much, but I low key am, lol. (GO, LIVERPOOL!)

Let me know in the comments: how was May for you? And what are you’re mostly looking forward to in June? Are you doing any themed reads for Pride Month? And if you care for soccer at all, are you excited for the match?

book review: eliza and her monsters, by francesca zappia

IMG_0435Her story is a phenomenon. Her life is a disaster.

In the real world, Eliza Mirk is shy, weird, and friendless. Online, she’s LadyConstellation, the anonymous creator of the wildly popular webcomic Monstrous Sea. Eliza can’t imagine enjoying the real world as much as she loves the online one, and she has no desire to try.

Then Wallace Warland, Monstrous Sea’s biggest fanfiction writer, transfers to her school. Wallace thinks Eliza is just another fan, and as he draws her out of her shell, she begins to wonder if a life offline might be worthwhile.

But when Eliza’s secret is accidentally shared with the world, everything she’s built—her story, her relationship with Wallace, and even her sanity—begins to fall apart.

Eliza and Her Monsters was an incredibly hyped book. Absolutely everyone in my Goodreads feed has given this book either 4 or 5 stars. As a book that has been compared many times to Fangirl, by Rainbow Rowell, which I love, I definitely had very high expectations. And I feel like I was ultimately let down.

Perhaps, having this book not be so hyped, I’d have let some things slide. But I was anticipating a perfect novel, one in which I’d fall in love with the characters almost instantly and relate to it a lot. This wasn’t what happened at all, but let’s discuss it here.


  1. Fandom positivity! I love when I can read books that talk about fandom in such a nice and positive matter. Growing up as a fangirl and having it be such a big part of my life, I’m always happy to see it being discussed in books. The entire world around Monstrous Sea was very interesting to read about; how people memorized specific quotes and cosplayed as their favorite characters. It was all fascinating and super relatable.
  2. The way it talked about being a content creator with anxiety. I feel like, especially at this age, where anyone can have a public online life and share it with others, it’s a very important topic to be discussed. I’m sure many people, being bloggers or YouTubers or Instagrammers feel the pressure to post more, keep their relevance and the relationship with their audience. I’m sure it can be very overwhelming. I’m glad people will be represented in this one and feel connected to this aspect of our MC.
  3. Eliza eventually grows, thank God. As you’ll see by the end of this review, I had a very hard time connecting with Eliza. But I do need to acknowledge her growth. She starts out the book being quite selfish, but ends up being confronted with a much harder narrative than hers, in a way that she grows to be more grateful. Her development on her anxiety was impressive too and I think it can be a very hopeful story for people who relate to her on this level.


  1. Eliza trying too hard to be edgy. I swear to God, there’s a line in this book that actually goes: “I have no friends. But that’s okay, I don’t want to be friends with these people anyway”. It was giving me Jughead vibes, with that whole scene: “I’m weird. I’m a weirdo. I don’t fit in. And I don’t want to fit in”. Ugh. Having no friends it’s not fun and definitely says more about who you are as a person rather than about your entire class. It would be understandable if Eliza acknowledged that she had a hard time making friends because of her anxiety or shyness, not because she felt like she was a special snowflake misunderstood by society. This trope should’ve died in 2010. Resultado de imagem para jughead i'm weird gif
  2. The family relationship. If you know anything about me, you know I die for great family dynamics in YA books. But this one was so messy. Eliza’s parents were truly just trying their best. Their daughter did not communicate with them and so they were just trying to understand her in the best of their abilities. It’s not easy, obviously, but it still bothered me so much how the book tried to paint them as villains for trying to take Eliza out of her room. She kept complaining about them when they were actually very nice parents. The fact that there was no proper apology at the end just bothered the heck out of me.
  3. Wallace and Eliza’s relationship by the end. I was feeling pretty neutral about Wallace and Eliza’s relationship, but by the end, they were just giving me very weird feelings. No spoilers at all, but it felt incredibly manipulative, from both sides. It was borderline abusive at some point, and I did not vibe with it at all.

  4. I didn’t care for Monstrous Sea at all. Because this book was compared to Fangirl so much, I was anticipating to fall in love with the fandom as much as I cared for Simon Snow, for example. But the thing is: I didn’t understand Monstrous Sea. The plot was very complex, there were so many characters and I was just lost completely. By the end, I was even skipping the chapters from Monstrous Sea, because I knew they weren’t adding to my understanding of it at all. It was quite disappointing, because I always love the idea of falling in love with two stories at once.


Despise my hard feelings, I can still understand why people like this book. As I mentioned above, it talked about anxiety very well. I truly felt Eliza’s struggles, especially towards writing the ending of her story and producing more content. I think for other artists dealing with anxiety, this book will be very important.

But, still, I was very much let down by this one. I didn’t expect to dislike it as much as I did, so I’m reluctant in sharing this review, but it didn’t feel right hiding my opinions just because they’re unpopular.


I know many of you love this book, so I hope there’s no bad feelings after reading this review, lol. Let’s discuss in the comments! 😊