It’s the beginning of a new year year, and I feel like everyone has made their 2019 resolutions already. I used to write these lists pretty often, but since 2017, I’ve been all over the place and decided to write no goals. The way I think about it is: if I don’t put any expectations on it, I’ll never be disappointed. It works – but it’s also a very stupid way to accepting, in advance, that I’ll be terrible at commiting to anything I set myself to. No more of that, then. Even if I fail everything, I want to know that I at least tried.
2019 is an exciting & terrifying year. Mostly terrifying, though. There are some major changes happening: I’ll be a college freshman (but I still don’t know which college), and this is already scary. I’m not used to new environments, and I’m sure I’ll make a fool of myself by first-day’s break. If any of you have university advice/tips, leave them in the comments and I’ll be forever grateful.
However, it’s exciting to think about a year where so much is unpredictable. For all the new years before, I knew just what to expect: I would be going to school, meeting my friends, taking some tests. But I’m not sure about pretty much anything for 2019, and it’s great to know I’ll have a clean slate, to start all over.
My 2019 resolutions will be semi-achievable. I want to commit to goals I feel like I’m able to conquer and not just general pretty quotes.
- Read 40 books. Let’s get back into the reading game, but still be reasonable. I’ve only read 18 books in 2018, so I don’t want to rush just yet.
- Read more books in different formats. I’ve pretty much only read physical and e-books before, and I would love to venture out for audio books. I didn’t think I would ever say this, since I find reading out loud super cringe-worthy at times. However, audio books are incredibly convenient. I don’t know if I’ll be able to achieve this in 2019, though, since audio books subscriptions are quite expensive. I also want to read more web-comics in the new year and experiment with different formats overall.
- Stay away from negativity. I don’t know why I seek out for negative content so often. I follow a lot of plus-sized content creators, both on YouTube and Instagram, and sometimes I go through their comments just to read the nasty & mean ones. Obviously, this makes me feel terrible about myself, as I don’t have a super-model body either, but I still do it nonetheless. When there’s any type of Twitter drama, I also want to know what’s going on, even if it will hurt me. For 2019, I want to quit this habit altogether: if there’s nothing positive for me there, then it doesn’t need to be in my life.
- Keep around only people who put as much effort as you do. I feel like we all have moments to look back on old friendships and relationships and come to the full realization that you probably cared for that person much more than they cared back. I’ve had my extent of these relationships, to be honest. It’s so exhaustive to put so much effort in trying to make someone else feel good just to get nothing in return. In 2019, I hope to make much better friendship choices.
- Stay true to who you are. Considering that I’ll be going to college and experiencing a lot of new things, my biggest fear is that I’ll change to the point I’m no longer recognizable. I definitely don’t want that. I know I’ll inevitably change, but I also want to remember my values and my beliefs, as they’re a very important part of me that I don’t want to let go of.
- Spend less time on social media. Ha. My future self will probably laugh at this. But I guess I’ll never make it if I don’t try. Over the last year, I realized just how much social media can be a toxic place. I only have Twitter fanaccounts (where I talk mostly about K-POP) and it’s so exhaustive having to deal with fanwars and negativity constantly. I plan on taking advantage of the ‘iPhone Time Limit’ & other resources as well. I don’t think I’ll ever stop using social media altogether, but I hope to at least minimize some of the time I spend at the moment.
- Write more! Journal more! Believe on my own writing! For so much of my life, I’ve just considered myself a fraud when it comes to writing. Even though I’ve won writing prizes in my school & city before, I never thought I was actually that good. But as I look back at some of my old writing, I realize just how much I enjoy it! I want to write more – even if just for myself – and I definitely think this blog will help me to exercise it as well!
What are some of your 2019 resolutions? Do you also plan your year ahead? Are you going all in and being ambitious or setting lower goals? Let’s chat!